I just want to die. It hurts so bad. I don't know how to go on. Everyday it keeps getting worse. This emptiness that I feel. The betrayal that i am facing daily. Those who should have loved me and protected me from harm are those who broke my hard and damaged me. Those I gave love to sold my love to the highest bidder and never cared that my happiness was the price they traded with. I hate life so much right now. If I don't think of the fact that I am only going to make their life better by just killing myself that's what I would do. But I am not going to let them rob me of life even if all I'll be living is a lie. I am dead inside and I'll never love anyone again. I'll never let anyone in ever again. Love is a lie. No one ever really loves anyone. LOVE DOESN'T"T EXIST. Bitter? sure as hell I am. Jaded. YUP that's me. I HATE EVERYONE WHO EVER HURT ME. I NEVER DID ANYTHING TO DESERVE SUCH CALLOUS TREATMENT. All I ever did was love. LOVE. All i ever gave was love. And all everyone I ever did love do is HURT ME AND HURT ME AND HURT ME> I CAN'T ever escape this pain. I'll just have to live each day knowing that somehow, cruel as it may sound, some people are just not made to be loved by anyone. Maybe it's because inside I'm just evil? I don't know. Must have been something I did to make the world hate the fact that I might actually be happy if given half the chance.