Darrel Robin Thompson: Letting go

My soulmate: Jonathan Brandis, may he finally R.I.P.

Every teardrop, every suicidal tendencies I have had is because of you.

I don't know who you are but I keep seeing you every where...

But you are no one out there are you love?

That's what everyone has been trying to tell me that I can't accept.

That you were Jonathan Brandis and you didn't die of suicide but you had AML...

JB Justin Bieber= Jonathan Brandis.

You had it all planned for what would happen when you die because you know I loved you deeply.

I have known for a long time Jonathan that you died because you were sick. That you were Darrel Robin Thompson.

I'm just... I just loved you so much... I still do and I never moved on and I don't know how...

My heart cant go on. 

"Every night in my dreams, I see you I feel you, that is how I know you'll go on... Far across the distance and spaces between us... you have shown me the way... Near far where ever you are I believe that the heart does go on..."

Ya Allah... how will I ever love again? I have loved no one but him for a thousand years...

I'll never love again. I don't know how.

Jonathan... why did you have to die my young, sweet love?