My Backstreet Family

Fact:

1. Had been there right from the start. The BSB as you know it was form because the figured it was a good way to help heal the world from all the pain that all 6 of us go through growing up.
2. The only thing is I never knew until in my early 20s that my idols BSB are actually my childhood friends.
3. They assimilated their Caucasian self when they could into the daily Malaysian life. You never know who walks among us... sometimes an ordinary bus-boy at a restaurant might just be your friendly and fun AJ.
4. Whatever... I have a problem with my memory... every-time I remember my Backstreet Boys family I keep forgetting.
5. I have been running from Nick ever since he got over eager with me when he was 16 and I was 17 and took my tentative no as a 'yes' and what was a loving moment to Nick traumatized me for a lifetime afterward and I always viewed it as raped although I was very attracted to him I was afraid I was being cheap and sinful cause I am a good Muslim girl and you don't sleep with a man unless you married him.
6. The only thing Nick and I already married when I went to Disneyland in May 1996.
7. My sister went out for the night with my aunt and cousin and I staye behind and got married to Nick.
8. and yes I have a marriage certifficate with Nick's name as Mohammad Adam Abdullah and married to Yasleh Hani Wati Mat Yassin given away by a religious elder taking the place of my dad and was solemnized by the Imam Mohammad Abdullah Salleh.
9. That 'rape' was Nick making me his wife trully. Except by then I have had a stroke and I have forgotten about that part of the Disneyland trip.
10. Pictures and evidence are available with Nick. i am still married to Nick, but just not under Malaysian jurrisdiction.
11. I am spiralling out of control cause i am just depressed cause I have forgotten again and have actually gotten myself entangled with Justin Bieber and I think I'm about to break a sweet yound boy's heart and I hope he will forgive my confussion.
12. There is no Lauren Kitt.
13. The only woman in Nick's life after me was Paris Hilton and that was only because he was so upset that I keep on insisting that I am just a huge fan when all he ever do is try to remind me of all the love we shared all the times he tried to make me happy... but I was dead inside... for two reasons: a)the ptsd and b)Jonathan brandis who was my first real true love who killed himself cause he couldn't stand the pain of the aml that was ravaging his body.
14. And now I am a mess... and I have told everyone that i am marrying Justin Bieber this Sunday Nov 3 when I am already a married woman....

So Nick? Bail me out one more time? Hani really would like to go back to Cali, baby. I am sorry.